Diagnosed at the age of fourteen with a progressive, degenerative neurological disease in which the doctors said would leave me in a wheelchair at twenty-five and dead at forty. Luckily it didn’t happen as predicted. In reality, the dis-ease never spread to my legs, manifesting itself solely in my upper extremities, which I am very grateful.
I witnessed muscle deterioration at the rate of one millimeter a month. After ten years my hands were lifeless. I could no longer move my thumbs and my left hand was functionally paralyzed. At 26 I met a hand surgeon who was willing to help me regain some semblance of functionality in my very dis-abled hands and very stressed body. Everything I did hurt-from opening a door, to putting on my clothes, and brushing my hair. I was in constant pain from the lack of muscle strength required to execute these simple, mundane life tasks.
I woke up in the mornings questioning how I was going to survive. I never “really” knew what would happen to me, whether the disease would progress as stated earlier in my life. I lived in fear, in a state of constant anxiety.
That was the story and for forty years I lived story. It was the only story I knew.
Today I have rewritten my story and that is the gift and inspiration I bring to others wanting to change their lives too. This is what I learned:
“When you love yourself enough you open widely to your greatest potential and begin to heal any form of dis-ease your body, mind or spirit may be holding.”
In sharing my miraculous transformation from surviving to thriving I hope to inspire you to do the same. After undergoing eighteen surgeries and 40 years of a disabling neurological disease, and exhausting the medical world, I stepped out of the medical box and opened to the world of spirituality and alternative healing modalities. I began to trust in the unknown forces of nature, the energy field and quantum physics. I learned to allow the flow of grace to nurture and heal me.
Healing is a process of releasing old messages stored in your DNA and having the courage to love yourself enough, trusting you deserved a better life, a healthier existence. When I adapted that new belief system, my entire being started to shift into wellness. Mostly, I learned to “let go” and follow my inner guidance. In doing so I allowed my heart to be guided by intuition and grace, not by my mind/ego, which were, for the most part, driven by fear, deep sadness and a primordial sense of not belonging. Slowly and steadily, I was unlocking myself from the only existence I had known and began to vision a new life, filled with joy and acceptance.”
In a deep excavation of the soul I began to identify the energetic root of the dis-ease and realized if my heart healed my body would heal my life began to shift. I recognized how much we call in unbeknownst to our mental mind because our soul knows what we require to transcend grief and dis-ease in this lifetime. As I became more in tuned to the energy around me I learned the incredible power of words and how we receive exactly what we ask for. My belief system shifted from what they did or what happened to me to everything in life is an offering, an opportunity to grow and ascend. More importantly, I learned that by seeing through softer eyes there was longer no room for anger.
My offering is for others to trust in their incredible gift to make choice, to be the co-creator of your destiny. It’s always a choice-to remain locked in old story, trapped in past belief patterns/behaviors that no longer serve you, or create a new story-one that resonates with your authentic self. It’s about saying yes to your desires, your higher self.
I cannot think of a better gift we can bestow upon ourselves then this.
When we forgive ourselves, and others, we heal the hurt and discomfort that lies dormant in our cellular makeup.
I learned that forgiveness + compassion = healing.
I learned to drop my weapons and pick up my angel wings.
When we are compassion and grace we attract the same. Healing is based in the heart, not the mind.
As a result of my learning, I have completely transcended the disease and live each day in joy and gratitude.
“If I can heal-anyone can heal.”
Be your hearts desire and live your soul purpose.